ANDREW

today another day......

2005-07-04T10:02:34Z

Today was my birthday another one..My day was consumed by nothingness and helping my brother put fluids in his car.school starts again soon and my job search is on again.....

twenty the age feels weird stuck between adult and can't buy beer yet age it kinda sucks...

well fuck it today was a good day...

forensicassasin @ 2005-05-02T16:33:00

2005-05-02T23:37:15Z

life has been endearing.I got a new job that pays vey well for what I do I work for two days a week and make 200$ bucks for it and it is very low stress a good deal for me whil I am going to school for the summer and fall. Money is great and knowone can tell me different I bought some new clothes a couple games and and going to pay off my driving ticket so there it goes...

all will be better in the future for the time is nigh and ample suggestiveness can get me through it...
love a.d

forensicassasin @ 2005-04-02T08:32:00

2005-04-02T16:38:08Z

Well everything seems to getting better.I have successfully got my car back I'm almost done with school and I just beat the game god of war a large feat oh yes oh yes..My weekend is here and I'm at the moms crib and I couln't be more tired..I'm still missing out on a lot but hey I'm out of the loop.
Everytime I wake up now I feel happy and pretty relaxed because now I know everything is alright in my life.
Got a job lined up for summer break I don't have to wake up at 8:00 every morning now and I also have my beautiful girlfriend with me at all times.god I love her..

for now it all seems to be coming into place and I like when that happens to me I still miss my brother a lot since he moved out again but that not my decision it's his so what am I gonna do about it nothin....

For all my thoughts I still for the life of still don't know why I seclude myself still but I'll figure out later...

gone

2005-03-27T05:50:14Z

My girlfriend is gone and I'm here alone on a saturday and it sucks someone please save me from this sucky place...

countdown to end of semester starts nigh......

forensicassasin @ 2005-03-18T22:21:00

2005-03-19T06:23:34Z

The ring 2 sucked giving closure but nothing substancial and that was that by the way if anyone loves a good sandwich go to the sandwich shop on kansas and get a hoagie veggie or not bar none the best sammich yous ever gonna buy..

Konichiwa bitches

I think ahh no........

2005-03-14T23:42:48Z

this weekend I crammed fo my midterm and my speech and successfully I did so...Form thursday to saturday night I did this and it sucked.So saturday I went to my friend ryans birthday party out there past funworks in the boonies...

Man that party was packed there wass two full kegs a gallon of rum and many beautiful woman.
Did you know if you mix beer with rum it tastes like root beer fuck..

through some of the night me and my friend j.r. and mike kept everbody drund and happy assisting with beer bongs and keg stands..and playing bass while jr played guitar and mike played drums we played some death metal type shit and misfits but everyone there seemed to like the pennywise we played more than it all...

what made my night though was this guy I met named zack he was an emo guy who brought this cute girl with him and they weren't together and by the time they had about eight beers in em they were almost fucking on the ground and that made my night beer assists another bad decision fuck yah

I only wish that crazy shit would happen to me damn I need to start taking pictuers of all that shit...

well damn bye..

Today and the wasted day....

2005-03-01T05:18:44Z

It goes by so fast life that is and it doesn't even bother to wave bye.Why is that?Is it because we are so full of ourselves we don't even stop to look around or is it just the fact that we are so busy that life is just another burden in our somewhat meaningless life...
Can we be that full of ourselves the answer is yes.Anyways life is good for me lately I see my brother every day which is cool and Me and my lady haven't fought over anything for the last week so all in all its good.

For some odd reason lately though I can't stop cleaning shit whether ut's just the car or the apt or the fucking bathroom..I just lived in slobby shit reaked surcomstances so long I strive for cleansliness lately fuck...

My schedule is cathching up to me though the one class on mondays and wednesdays and the three classes on tuesday and thursdays fuck fuck fuck it sucks ....

so thats life thats what all people say to quote a famous guy probably tony bennett but anyways hasta la bye bye....

ahhhhhhhhh........

2005-02-17T06:19:11Z

I awoke this morning thinking about school then I looked aroung and realized I was covered in fuckin bugs...This was the highlight of my day since I spent about three hours vaccuming up out of my room....
I am not really sure what the bugs are but assuming since the bugs came out of the ceiling I think they are termites but they had wings though.......

the bugs come in packs and tried to lay eggs in my carpet so I thought that isn't happening so I vaccumed them up with the quickness...got someone coming in the morning to inspect though and hopefully I can move back into my room because my living room sucks....

I have been thinking lately that I need to do something with my bass and I would really like to have someone to jam with again so I can be more productive and possibly make something of it as well..
as my life is slowly consumed by more homework I long for music and friends and alcohol so if anybody wants something to do besides kick it at starbucks give me a ring...

from my desolate room peace out........

well midterms..

2005-02-04T07:20:09Z

every time I think of all the material learned within a four week period I think my damn head will explode but,it never does and I am thankful for this...I think that it's the end but it will always be there the material I have learned and the ways to process it into my life.Stress has become the equal factor of my life I just can't seem to let it go and it will consume me...

A good time should releive me of the elastic prison of depsair but it seems to dwell over me like a cloud of musty deep fryer air in my small apartment and the stench won't leave..

Coffee I have found is the ultimate way for me to do this java has it's own preconceived ways of alerting and dismembering the fundamental grooves imprinting themselves into my life...It seems that the caffeine has a soothing effect on me that lasts a while and I've grown to like it...

All of this is obsolete and I need to tell myself this so I will study my ass off untill next time andrew. d

I have been dwelling on and on.................

2005-01-13T19:54:42Z

Today I woke up put clothes on ate some oatmeal and felt shitty my girl was asleep and I was on my way to school at about 9:00am and all I wanted to do was crawl back into bed and not do anything but I know that is wrong now...

From all my past expieriences I know that laziness brings depression,ill blooded thoughts and anger a lot of the time and that is a reasonable thing not too accomplish but hey sleeping till 2:00 has it's upside.....I need to get a job fast!!!!!!

While I am still on the subject life in general seems to pass me by so fast and I am concerned that if I don't stop and look around I might miss it.What would I miss maybe the girl that got away ~.....~ or the money I didn't make when I could've or the party I didn't go to or just friends I neglect for my girlfriend and that isn't how I want to live I want everything to go as I want like starting a band..
I love hardcore but sometimes it doesn't fullfill my need for the hateful side of life,I enjoy hearing of my father north and disembowling the human body piece by piece,but at sometimes this doen't do it either..

I enjoy the lyrics of pig destroyer and the physcho sematic drum beats of suffocation with a mix of as I lay dying over the beat of a mars volta esk guitar solo...like so (I would cut myself to pass the time) then a blast beat for about 5 minutes followed by a BARK or a death burp, and then the ominous guitar telling you I've been waiting for so long or I am lost....

I don't know what i want anymore but leisure passion and some oatmeal might just do the trick but you never know what will come from your expieriences and the life we live every day....

another scrap bites the dust and so does ANDREW...

as kip says in NAPOLEON DYNAMITE "PEACE OUT"

sociology in retrospect to the people of our time...

2005-01-13T00:15:05Z

people as I have learned can present analyze and interpret perform also do amazing things even in the limited enviornments of our world...Social behavior is inquisitive and apethectic to such thins as music the arts ans at anytime they can bring the whole world together to find such things astounding..

My teacher gabriella teaches these things to me in such detail and calibur that it feels that someone has had sex with my mind and left me a tip just for listening and it's great..

She has a way with words that only a brillant yet socially not challenged person can appreciate and love so much that it makes athree hour class seem like a one minute class,I am just enthrooled in the class I can't wait to go back and I like that aspect of school it's not workas I see it just life in retospect from another persons outlook..

I know I seem to enjoy this too much but I can't help it aside from watching the food network and being absorbed by other peoples discussions I can't helped but feel greatful for this oppurtunity too expand my mind even if it's not mathematically or linguistically...

When life begins we are no more than helpless and needy,but when knowledge is absorbed and our muscles get stronger we are able to accomplish so much more than we think is pheasable and pallatable..

I am just happy I am doing something besides watching tv and playing video games because thats not all I like to do and be into I don't know journal out no more thoughts too much too much see yah....

school

2005-01-11T06:00:21Z

started school today and it went pretty good..I was scared at first because I haven't been in that situation for almost a year and I felt the anxiety and the strain of being around all of the people,teachers,and assholes...I tell you what I also felt the burn when I walked home .I walked only about 6 blocks and my legs just stiffened up and I felt overworked with my fat ass..

I was wondering if I would my old friends from sschool there but to no avail they were no where in sight so I just went on....This year I am taking my pre requisits and trying to pass them all with a's or b's.

with all tese new things happening I hope my mind doesn't explode and I have a nervous breakdown but I'll try to just take it as slow as I need to and then see what comes next..

I am taking my speech class an intro to humanities class,a science matters class and health class so i am full time...not too bad but to me this is a full load so can I coap maybe?

my professionalism in these matters brings me to question my abilities and mastering of subjects and feelings as well..stress and happiness play a great roll in the balance of my life as of this day on but I welcome change and the prosperity I will bring to my brain and other realms of my skills..

if anyones reads this and thinks I'm taking this way too seriously THANK YOU!!!! I am..

If Columbus didn't take himself seriously he couldn't have enslaved all those dark colored natives...You see what I'M saying I know you do....

untill them sighning off ANDREW .D

Kill andrew vol.3

2004-09-04T06:02:17Z

To be exact I haven't done much lately except astange myself from people and not do too much...Life seems to throw those curveballs sometimes mixed up vats of human waste thrown at you from every angle like it was meant for you and only you and that is not the end of this dabaccle but as it may it seems to be....

When I firststarted out I thought life was the breeze and I was a goose sailing on its protected guidance but as it goes I astrayed and the hurricane crushed forth upon me...

To whomit may concern life is not much but the blackhole to stephen Hawkings mindscape of dillusion it sucks and brightens the night sky like a full moon on double soup tuesday at the orphanariom..

My acquiesce to defeat before I start will eventually be my down fall to extermination and misfortune..All of this is a lot to consume but hey I think of it at all times and when ever I can put my sandwich down...

In my mind this is all buisness and my life is infallable so are my apiffanies and thoughts to once own the world with a brushstroke of liquid mapalm ,but alas it may come to be......

I have lost.....

2004-07-11T03:07:06Z

I've been so busy not doing anything lately I forgot who I was I am andrew the guy that always had fun had the places to be and always cared for what my friends did and tried to help listen or try not to let everything fall to shit for them I was an alright guy...Everything ended so ubruptly that I saw nothing coming forward..When I was younger it all made perfect sense know I know not what I do and that is what I know if you know what I mean...This life is special too special too not do anything and rot away like so many of my friends that have stabbed me in the back for noyhing and it's not really as sad as it is pathetic,but I'll take it in stride like I do with everthing and all things ......It all seems somperfect untill you put your face up to the glass and smell the shit there all sellin!!!!!

My time has almost come....

2004-05-23T03:40:37Z

For the last 4 years I have thought of nothing short of freedom (and possibly a part time job).On Monday this will finally come with my graduating high school..Monday is my tearn for life to begin and childhood to end and I feel quite gratified for this to happen ....

When I lerned of my new found life all I could think about was money school friends life and the time I will have doing all of them just kidding...But I can only fear the result of it which will be the responsibility of life and all its burdens work school work school in a continuous loop of mental freakeness...

Maybe all the good in the world will come from this and I'll become a millionaire and I'll love every minute or maybe I will be the most homeless person on the world either way I've got to do somethin and all of the above isn't quite on the list for some reason..

When I see all thekids in my neihborhoodrunning playing without a care in the world it brings me to that place I wish I could be like when I never questioned authority or religion was my life and when money wasn't important or girls in alll their brillance I've loved two women in my life one had skin like snow and was all I thought of or what I thought and the other is small and loves me uncondiysonally but all of this comes to and end is all I am saying and I am happy at the end of those days because even though life sucks sometimes you still have your memories of how much you have been loved or cared for even in all in minuscullities....10 4 and over and out<3

My lungs are fat...

2004-04-18T00:13:05Z

Every time I try to keep up with everyone they all seem to be going faster then me or they stay away for some odd reason that I can't explain...the other day kristan and jamie came over and didn't even get out of the car to say hello they just drove off.Is my girlfriend a deterent to hanging out with me I'm I to fat to hang with what is the problemo?

I love all my friends and I know I just happen to stop by sparatically sometimes but I wish they would hang out when they could if its just to stop by or have coffee or watch movies I need to make them come by having a huge signout side that says free hellfest tickets at apt K or some shit...

The time has come to focus on what matters and to have the life that I need I need a job I need my car back I need I need I need...School is almost gone so there is one more barrier down for the count and All I can think about is more school we all need it but I will need so much that it will consume about the next six yrs of my life I don't what I should do but slle seems atequet so I'll go do that...

My name is mud...

2004-03-27T06:09:16Z

over the last few weeks a lot of poop has happened in my general area of life..for some reason everyone I meet now seems to have problems with me in some sense of the word..The people I have jammed with though haven't they have been very cool my friend marcus is a good guitar player and he really wants to do something with it we talk and shit but we'll have to see what happens if we will play a show I willl let everybody know whats going down....I want everybody I knoe to come over a drink beer and watch cky movies with me or boones whatever your preference and a little so co for my bud jess jess.. and a little cris for kris..

some of the lyrics I wrote for a song mark came up with seem gay so tell me what you think..

(What keeps me coming Back</3) every time i face the road my back feels the blade going deeper your twisted symphony of love and hate keeps me coming back your face so beautiful i'll keep it forever this pain that I feel inside the bottle drops and presence fades the aroma getting thicker now once again your voice soothes a shot of life once held back comes to life in a heap of sorrow and regret we come together as adhesive lips the passion keeps us going now all that seperates us is death that keeps our hearts coming back. the road the beckons me it calls and calls the lights in my face I feel a swurve all that keeps me know are the tubes that connect through my nerves, my immortal status I hit the ground running with the past tense backwords and fetal, the position i'm in my sins wash away for all I can so is say with my lust and desire I wish upon you, everything and everything I cannot say.. FINISH If you dig it thats cool I appreciate sarcasm and dismay or if yah hate it thats cool to all just word to me but with a special meaning..I miss my old life and I want it back..

.........?

2004-03-24T07:05:09Z

Bye bye?

What can I say!!!!

2004-02-22T04:26:09Z

My life and everything are good. I'm tired of not being in a good damn mood all the time and everyone is helping keep me in the zone where I need to be..
Not to long ago I started taking a drug that can cause depression suicidal tendincies and a strong anexiety disorder so I haven't been treating evrybody that fairly and I haven't hung out with my brother in about threee weeks.I enjoy my bros company but hes always busy either with work or with his girl so I can't blame him I got school and a girl too so I understand they are hard to manage..

school is almost over only have about two more weeks left then I can start working and wait for college classes to start...i can't wait for this the faster I get started the faster I can leave this shit towm of mine called modesto not as bad as salida but shitty in it's own right...I want the beach hot women and the salty air in my lungs is what I need and all I need to survive the horrids of overpopulation and poverty oh yeah and beer lots of it also friends would benice well you know where I am headed with this..

when I start working with my paycheck I thing I'lltake all my friends to dinner at the red lobster or apple bees I want to do something for all the people that have done so much for me oh yeah and my parents because I love them or something...

My car should be there at my apt on sunday it's not much but it was 1200 bucks so I'll enjoy it as much as I can,I love my dad he buys it I pay him back it's so great oh yeah it 's a honda accord 1994 not as new as my friends cars but it gets the job done yah know...

Bought my girl the new kanye west cd what can yah say hes hot man best rrapper I ever heard while rappin with his mouth wired shut...I hope she enjois it because I forgot to buy her a valentines gift so this is it and she betta not complain or I'll smack er that little 4'9 sucka....<3

this sucks so I'm gonna go back to my friends and drink some more beers amber come back with my guinness fucker hey ya'll see yah on the flip side...<3

why???

2004-02-02T16:31:42Z

My cousin died this saturday in an atv accident it really fucked up my weekend and my life as it was..I couldn't help him like I could when we were littler helping out of the fort we built in my old living room with my brother...

His name was nathaniel alguier he was a good friend to me and I will never forget him and I can't if I tried his face is emblazed into my mind I miss him very much and I love him so what am I to do but just go on and try not to think of the bad and only the good by nat hope to see you again.....

nathaniel alguier (1983-2004)with love

today it starts...

2004-01-30T16:30:56Z

Finally I have some money to start..By this I mean my diet which is the atkins diet...I started putting on some pounds that I lost during the summer time...but I do nothing now so I know that is the problem no workout just homework and my friends...

Tomorrow is the big test of the diet to see if I pass on eating the fat slice pizza and a beer I don't know but it would be cool to say I did since I never have...

This week has been cool I hooked up with my good friends even if it was only for about 10 minutes and I sold only one cd but all in good time..And lacy I love talking to you man you have a cheery sense of being a person and thats what I need to see more in people and stop seeing all the shit that people throw at me...

Oh yeah if anybody wants to buy a cd (if lacy desn't swoop on them first call me)

I got some good shit like converge atmosphere,every time I die and many more so give me a ring and I'll save you a cd.....advertising de la andrew...

whoa just got done...

2004-01-25T03:06:41Z

I just spent about 9 hrs moving stuff from my moms house in los altos to haywaed whereshe now resides amd that was a most shitty saturday spent but ay least I spent it with my mom and me and gary helped out a lot so I feel greatful plus we get a shit load of money for it..Not exactly a shitload but about a hundred bucks enough for clothes and cigs and that about that sorry I missed berkley lace face thers always another saturday though thanks and I hope your picnic was cool with everybody...

fuck this I'm decked sleepy sleepy night night time aggghhhhh...

As if it wasn't

2004-01-16T20:07:33Z

my life just changes sparatically day to day.I found out that my dad really wants to move to texas this year which means since he is so bull headed about every thing that he is doing it for sure..The only thing that was keeping him from leaving was me and my brother but were all grown up and he feels his final retreat should be back where his family is and his mother.like they say home is where the heart is and ain't the the truth..

For now I will bw fine but come april I might not have a place to live unless my dad sighns over the apt to me so I might need a roommate..
If any of you peeps will be going to the junior college and need to get away from your family desperatly I live two blocks from the mjc and rent split between me and one other person will be two-fifty a month thats two-hundred and fifty dollars a month....so if you are interested call my cell..

As if it mattered but I really need advice and if anyone is willing to give I am open to listen about any relationship thing you have to give call me come over I'll come over just call and I will listen because I don't know what the helll is going on and it really really sucks more than anything that can conjur alone in my mind as of this moment...or fathem..

To be there but feel as if you are a stranger to the person it matters most is the worst feeling that you can have happen to you and I know it very well...it's sucky.

I'm sorry went off there all of you have a good weekend see you at the show...bye

i've bee feeling trapped lately!!!!

2004-01-15T20:08:15Z

Sometimes I feel as if my head will explode...It really blows me and wanda get into fights all the time about stupid shit it's just not what I want I can't do this all the time it fucks me .....

All the time I hear peoplle calling me an asshole all the time and I'm starting to get sick of it...people think that I cause a lot of drama because I'm the sensitive dude or some shit and they say I can't take a joke so I'm an asshole but when people criticize you for being with your girlfriend a lot thats whenshit starts to get stupid and faulty and you are suspicious of everyoneand my girlfriend hates everybody if I talk about lacy or jessica or kristan she flips out and asked me if I have been hangin out with miss ~hall~ or if I have been lying to her about where I go It sucks ahhhhhh...

I need time to decifer wheather or not I can deal with this much longer????

I wish I had a relationship like adams and brittanys where the are inseperable but so cute you want to eat them and be like them in every way those people make me mad it never works that wat no matter how hard you try I'm hopeless and I miss my friends too muck girlfriend time and not enough shows and in and out burgers and subway which I miss getting for free fuuuucccckkkkk....I'm sorry I'm real hungry I missed lunch like a stupid ass cause Iwanted a cigerette...

Thats another cool thing about this place I can sign out go smoke a cigerette and come right back and it's awesome so I leave you all now or the two people that read this thanks miss yah....

To whoever reads this the.......

2004-01-05T19:59:32Z

To all my friends the first and thing I shall address is that the locust and the dillenger escape plan are coming to slims on the 20 th of february so if you like hardcore and I'm asking only because dillenger is better than any hardcore band be cause face it if you listen to any hardcore band they have remenensce of dillenger but they can actually play there stuff instead of ripping it off you will love the dillenger escape plan and if you don't like either of these bands you are not my friend ASSHOLE..........

Absensce makes the heart grow fonder....................
and so does cheesecake<3